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today was the last real day of classes... IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CRAZY! all we've got left is senior presentation, FINALS (kinda?), baccalaureate, grad, and grad night... and we're DONE! FOREVER... well until the reunion in 10 years that i already have the banner for. geez. we're already planning... I TOLD YOU THIS WAS KERAYZEE!!!!!
signing yearbooks is soooooooooo hard... i mean i don't wanna come off superficial or anything and i don't wanna get generic or say stuff like "we should kick it this summer" when i know that's not gonna happen... and it's not like i can just say "have a kick ass summer" either.. i've gotta say "have a kick ass life"... WHAT IS THAT? it's like a final goodbye! it's sooooooooooooooo weird... and i don't wanna say goodbye to my friends... like saying "this is it.. peace out! and i'll never see you again..." ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... too much emotional attachment. i can't bring myself to finish them either... like today.. i only did like a third of peter's and lauren's... GOD! and i haven't even touched becky's yet! WHAT AM I GONNA SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is hard! getting everything you wanna say in a yearbook.. all the memories and wishes and "you're so cool" stuff and thank you's and cute-sie things.. i know i'm gonna forget stuff... my goodness! how can you cram 4 years into words in a yearbook anyway... my life is sooooooo much more than words... the way my friends make me feel is way more than words... this is entirely too frustrating. maybe i should just sign my name! noooooooooooooo... can't do that either. man!
other than the yearbook signing crises.... life is ok! things are finally simmering down in Encarnacion-land... post-cotillion is much less stressful! oh yeah... the COTILLION!!!!
it was sooooooooooooooooooo wonderful! ah.. ima miss all the cotillioners.. *tear*tear* but ya.. it was really cool to be like a princess for the night... way exciting.. i'll probably put up pics later or something... ya idk right now... grad is crazy fosho!
Best of Class 2003 on Treasure Island was really cool too! yesterday was soooooooooooo purdy... today... not so much. lol. looks like rain tomorrow maybe? hope not... megan's doing the swim thing tomorrow and that might suck... although i've been told that swimming in the rain can be quite fun... then again.. i'm not really feelin the whole swim suit thing right now... yuck! i hate the beginning of summer... ewwwww... yeah yeah yeah.... love my body. i kno i kno... but gross! maybe if i spending the next month working out super hard and running and eating healthy and do some sun bathing... i'll be presentable by mid-july! sounds like a plan... hahahahahaha... ya right!?! me... eat healthy... that's a laugh... I HEART COKE! coca-cola that is, ok? dah. lol..... PSYCHIATRIST!!!!!!!!!!! now that's a great game! i rock! woo woo...
hahahahahahha... i haven't blogged in hella days... and wow this is refreshing... especially at 1 in the morning... but i think i'm losing speed to ima bounce... KILLER KISSES and HUMUNGOUS HUGS!!!!! luv ya babe! ciao... adios... au revior... PEACE! |
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hmmm... haven't blogged in FOREVER it seems... sooooooooooo much has happened.. eeeeeeee... i'll talk more about it later..
today rocked up until 5:30. yikes! |
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so.... today was kinda crappy... ya... stupid tests... stupid girls... stupid clothes.
so in honor of my post-ball sentiments that are quicky leaving me... and the really cool movie that the theme song (that didn't get played) was kinda from... here's my list of the...
10 THINGS I HATED ABOUT TODAY...
I hate the way I couldn't find
my AP student pack
I hate the way I he slowed me down...
I wasn't going that fast.
I hate the way my locker won't open.
I hate it when things fall.
I hate it when things can't be found,
and on the floor you'll see me sprawled.
I hate it when she butts in
lil miss thang, where are you here?
this is OUR time to relax today
what must i say to make it clear.
I hate the way you can ease
my problems with your touch.
I still can't believe it took so long
till you finally had a hunch.
I hate those secrets and inside jokes
that i never seem to get
I hate the way i'll turn around and
by a stuffed toucan my head gets hit.
I hate the way we plan and plot
but whatever, it's kinda fun.
don't mess with us
the axis powers, cuz we're lugubrious. |
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| hmmmmmmm... let's see... ah... i'm not confused anymore... i know what up. i'm just frustrated that it can't go anywhere (right now) cuz we're both so limited by cotillion and school... argh. ya... so idk where things will go... somewhere i hope. |
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"Come closer my love, I'm badly in need of an afternoon's debauchery"
so i just got off the phone with my bestest bud, lauren... ya kno... it's what we girls do. so anyways... we talked about post-physics test thangs... and people... muahahahahhaha... so yeah... BOYS are really "horny" this time of year... idk what's in the water at dls or anything.. but some of them are very ok with talking nasty.. and i'm like. "WOAH.. where the hell'd that come from?" it's really kinda gross... i don't wanna hear that! sex sex sex... SICK! not in a good "SICK" way.. but like a gross "SICK" way... bleh. they must've gotten real comfortable with us after ball i guess... it's weird.
OH YEAH>>> BALL!!! ball was tight... i had a grrrrrrrrreat time. very lacking in drama... phew.. and thank god for that cuz sat. night had some real potential for a huge BLOW UP! luckily.. nothing happened.. anyways.. i'd give senior ball an A.... (lol. grading!) i had so much fun even if i was kinda zombie-like afterwards... good times good times... i think pre-ball was pretty crazy... let's see... hair at noon. make-up at 2. boutenier (spelling?) at 3:30. stuffing food down my face before lauren and the parents arrive at 4:30. jordan arrives at 5. peter arrives at 5:10... HE WAS LATE!!! that was hella funny too... he called that afternoon to figure out the plans... he totally forgot we were meeting at my place at 5... so it was like 4 and he hadn't gotten ready yet! needless to say.. i was freakin out! but it was alllllllllll good... he got there eventually in the VAN! a 1984 brown chrysler van... that's how to ride in style! man... that's a tight van... let's see: the driver's side door has fallen off TWICE. the sliding door only opens from the outside. you can't roll the windows all the way up or all the way down. the horn falls off. the fabric on the roof sags. and the shades lost their fur... wow. but it didn't really matter. it was pretty cool actually. and on the ride home peter was kinda tired and driving less than perfectly.. and lauren and jordan were in the back seat and complaining about his driving. so he said that they could just get out of the van and walk the rest of the way. but then they really couldn't cuz it opens from the outside, so he retracted his statement and said he'd pull over, open the door, then they could get out and walk... lol... i'm highly amused at 2 in the morning.
so back to pre-ball... so we're at my place and and me and lauren have this on-going joke about our "social" titles... but incidentally they worked out perfectly with the dresses we were wearing... i'll put up pictures for ya'll to see later.. but ya... lauren's the "goddess of goodness" while i'm the "queen of corruption" in comparison to her although i'm really a bit of a goody-goody (see.. i accept it.) ... and the boys matched really well too... ah the memories... jordan's vest matched like perfectly.. and peter's tails and hankerchief worked really well... it's interesting... even all cleaned up and dressed up.. the guys don't really look that different.. well jordan does kinda sorta.. but not really peter.. he could be all grungy after a rugby game. or wearing that god-awful blue baseball cap. or a super sharp tuxedo and look relatively the same... why is that? but i'm not saying that he didn't look nice.. cuz he really did... =) everyone did.
so we drove to john's where they had CHALICES of sparkling cider... ahhhh john... his parent's are Jo and Joe... the J Mac's.. cept for his sister... but oh well.. he's got a really nice family... miriam was really cool too... really pretty. oh ya.. and i met peter's parents.. OMG they were SOOOOOOOOOO cute. but i probably shouldn't use "cute" in reference to parents cuz that's kinda disrespectful.. but you get the picture. I LOVE THEIR ACCENTS!!!!!!!!! his mom called me the "birthday girl"... hehe... ya... peter was embarrassed... he got all red.. like REALLY RED! now that was cute!
got in the limo... peter and i. jordan and lauren. john and miriam. sweet ride over... lots of college talk and other stuff... hehe. BRIDGES! awwwwwwww... there were so many limos going into the city... kinda crazy. hahahha... ya... good stuff.
so we got to city hall... IT WAS HELLA COLD! but we got in and wow... it's gorgeous inside... i saw Becca (my kairos bud) and other people... so let's see... quick re-cap: metal detectors. search. check-in. up the BIG STAIRCASE. ice sculpture. just kinda looking out over the 2nd floor. hearing my name but not being able to make out faces. BECKY caught up with roger. down the BIG STAIRCASE. looking for table. boys reuniting. more reuniting. a quick trip to the bathroom=15 minutes. other dining room. back to first dining room. found the others. dinner. drinks. girls bathroom. boys bathroom. ice cream. pictures around the table. roses. "let's keep this hetero..." - john. formal pictures. took off the shoes. dancing. dancing. more dancing. cotillion practice. dancing. drinks. dancing. talking and dancing. 11:50 no more music. RAGE! THEY DIDN'T EVEN PLAY OUR THEME SONG! NOT THE SENIOR SONG! OR THE BALL SONG!!! OMG!!!!!!! got stuff. took pictures. got cd and frame. limo...
man... BALL WAS AWESOME... so was post- ball... eeeeeeeeeeeeee
I LOVE DAVID GRAY MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!! (be mine. be mine.) perfect for the ride home... *dreamy sigh* for sure peter's got stronger hands than lauren does *dreamy sigh*
got back to john's... we were tired. but i think peter was ok with doing stuff.. but ya. we were tired. drove back to my place and ate.. DUH! the boys left. lauren and i took out the bajillion bobby pins in our hair. reminisced over the wonderful evening. sleep.
mmmmmmm... BALL! i can't help but smile... (and that doesn't mean something happened! cuz nothing did! OK! so people need to stop asking!!!!) lol |
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and while i'm at it... here are more good DG lyrics/quotes...
[1] = "Let go of your heart, let go of your head, and feel it now... Babylon"
[2] = "Come closer my love, I'm badly in need of an afternoon's debauchery"
[3] = "You in a cocktail skirt and me in a suit, but it just wasn't me"
[4] = "I got a sword to stem the rivers and cut the moon in two"
[5] = "Me like a million others before trying to make sense of the rain"
[6] = "What we gonna do when the money runs out? I wish there was something I could say..."
[7] = "In your eyes, I start to see a starry veil, the ocean of infinity"
[8] = "But who knows what's waiting in the wings of time. Dry your eyes we're gonna go where we can shine"
[9] = "And when you kiss me on that midnight street, Sweep me off my feet, singing ain't this life so sweet"
[10] = "I don't need no other distractions - there's too much here to see"
[11] = "You turn out the light and the dark sucks on the embers of the fire"
[12] = "You have led me into worlds unknown and I'm walking there still"
[13] = "Loves old song playing in our hearts binding it together pulling it apart"
[14] = "Blind circle, moon and sun body willing, mind undone"
[15] = "The moon is fire in your hair; a million miles beyond what science understands"
[16] = "For me for you for everyone forever is tomorrow is today"
[17] = "New York was dark dirty and stark burning with yellow wings"
[18] = "And she don't mind the late night late night radio"
[19] = "Moon and stars above me mingle with the blood inside my vein"
<--ah david gray... not cute... but wow... now that's the english stud! lol... ah words aren't shit... they're... *dreamy sigh*... for sure used to woo women... *dreamy sigh*... i melt. ok... geez... i just wanna write my own music now too!!!! but yeah... i'm no english stud... numbers i can handle... idk... maybe some stroke of genius will overtake me... |
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something doesn't feel quite right... idk... where do we go from here? better yet.. where are we? i just don't know and i think i need to know soon. argh. y is he so hard to read?!? lauren's guy too... y do we both like boys that are hard to read? daaaaaaah.
anyways... david gray songs rock! especially for right now in my life... couldn't have found a better soundtrack for the past few months... lol. actually it'd be more like a compilation mix or something... but his lyrics are like... ME! good grief!
This Year's Love
This years love had better last
Heaven knows it's high time
And I've been waiting on my own too long
But when you hold me like you do
It feels so right
I start to forget
How my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feeling like you can't go on
Turning circles when time again
It cuts like a knife oh yeah
If you love me got to know for sure
Cos it takes something more this time
Than sweet sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall
Losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
And when you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
So whose to worry
If our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you know this life goes on
And won't you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
anyways... it's a GILMORE night... things aren't lookin too good right now for rory (aka lauren... lol...jk) so yeah.. our "rolemodels"/"tv personalities" aren't being all "like us" anymore... BLAH! |
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oh phew.. it's ok now!
anyways... i think that happy part of my life is starting to go "bye-bye"... things are getting all wierd and crappy again... and try as i might to stay positive and motivated till the end... idk how much longer i can hold out?
MY FRIENDS ARE ALL LEAVING!!!!! becky's on her way to the air force... june 26... that's not even a month after grad!!!! OMG she's my homegirl since freshman year... and now she's gonna get even more physical in college... i mean... geez... she already pretty tough as it is (lol... in that girly way)... i'm gonna miss her! and lauren's heading cross-country to VERMONT!!! THAT'S WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY on the other side of the US... 3 hour time difference!!!!! OMG! and there's megan who's going to UCSB which is closer but she's got kevin going there too and what seems to be 1/4 of our class along with that! Roni's attending USC! Christina might be going to Brown! and Peter, too, maybe? but he's set on Pomona for now... ALL MY FRIENDS ARE LEAVING ME!!!!!!
things will never be the same after grad night.... ah... *whimper* this is sad. |
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| hey. why does my page say UNDER CONSTRUCTION!!!! |
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| oh my dear jesus... give me the strength not to kill mr. peter kelly right now OMG!!!! WTF!!!! WHY!!!! where does he get off assuming things? speculating about things? GOD!!!! i don't know anyone else who'd have the audacity to pull a stunt like this! and he's not getting away with this.. no no no... no, sir! |
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